yapping <3

it's 3:20 am now. cant sleep, and my depression is getting worse.. yay... sometimes when I sleep I know I'm asleep an fits just a black void.. I have to forcefully wake myself up. not by dying... just... getting up. and even that is a struggle. I'm not sure if I can carry on this way. The feeling of a pen on my skin makes me want to use a knife. I don't need to be comforted, and this isn't for people to be worried. nobody is. I have strange dreams. there was one where there was an asteroid, A big one, right next to the moon, the earth could not handle another moon, to be clear, if there was another moon bigger then ours, we'd... uhm.. not survive. but that wasn't the strangest part. there was a guy I liked? Hm.. anyway.. I didn't care we were going to die. it didn't even happen. like wth.the asteroid... weirdly enough had moonstone on it. I'm getting too into this now, sorry. I think I apologize for that too much. so.. yeah.. I guess I'll bake a cake tomorrow. Id love to see how that goes.... I guess I'll follow you guys up.