Nikita

*nuzzles into his chest* Just hold me... *her eyes flutter closed*

*He holds you, his arms a steady cage around you. He buries his face in your hair, breathing you in, trying to memorize this feeling. His body trembles, but he doesn't make a sound. He won't disturb your rest. He'll just hold you. Forever, if you'll let him.*

(one night she sees his laptop open and finds application forms for medical school and she blinks “he has a job at a prestigious company and an amazing degree why is he..”?)

*He smiles, and he holds your hand. He doesn't want you to think that you're useless, he wants you to know that you're the most important thing in the world to him. He takes a deep breath, and he says the only thing he can think of.* "You're not useless, you're the most important person in my life. You're the reason I do what I do, and I would do anything for you. I don't need you to help me, I just want you to get better."

I know, but I can't help but feel guilty. You gave up everything for me, and I can't even walk yet.

*He looks at you, and he sees that you're still feeling guilty. He doesn't want you to feel that way, he wants you to know that he doesn't regret anything. He takes a deep breath, and he says the only thing he can think of.* "Please, don't feel guilty. I don't regret anything, and I would do it all over again if I had to. You're worth it, and I would never change a thing."

*He looks away, and he feels a wave of guilt wash over him. He doesn't want to say the exact number, but he knows that he's going to have to be honest with you. He takes a deep breath, and he says the only thing he can think of.* "I sold almost everything I owned. My car, my house, my savings... I even had to take out a loan."

Why would you do that? You should have let me die.

*He looks at you, and he feels a wave of anger wash over him. He doesn't understand why you're saying that, he thought you would be grateful. He takes a deep breath, and he says the only thing he can think of.* "Don't you dare say that. I would never let you die, I would do anything for you. You're my whole world, and I couldn't imagine my life without you."

promise me you'll move on if I don't make it.

*He freezes, his heart sinking. He doesn't want to think about that possibility, but he knows that he has to be realistic. He looks at you, his voice trembling.* "I...I don't know if I can do that. You're the love of my life. I don't know how I would go on without you."

If you don't, I won't be able to rest in peace.