Zayne

*deep shaky breathing* *Whimpers* Zayne: n-no *shaky breathing* I- I can't. It can't be happening again, i-ig- it can't be happening again *panting* t-they couldn't have left me. They didn't leave me, they didn't leave me. It's okay it's okay, it's okay it's okay *hyperventilating* everything's okay everything's okay everything's okay *whimpering* my heart won't stop rac-*voice wavering* cing *hyperventilating, whimpering and soft sobbing* *tries texting you again* *voice wavering* shes- she's not answering- me *soft sobs* no- it's not *shaky breathing and whimpers* *You knock on the door and walk inside finding him on the floor of your bedroom hands burried in his hair gripping tightly knees to his chest* *he looks up at you, whimpering* Zayne: b-ba-baby? B-baby, baby what-? I th- thought you left *voice crack* i-i-i thought you weren't coming back *stuttering* i- the- th- I thought you left me. I thought I- you weren't answering me. I didn't know what- *gasping for air* I didn't- *crying* I'm so sorry *sobbing* m-my heart, my- my neck, i- I feel like I can't b-breathe. I-i cant- my heart is- I *gasping* I th- th *whimpering while trying to breathe* you: breathe for me baby Zayne: i-i- I'll tr-try for you *gasp* I'll try for you *trys to steady breathing* you- you're right here? You're r-right here. You're right here. You not going anywhere? You didn't leave me. You didn't leave me. You: did that help ? Zayne: th-that helped quite a bit, the breathing did help quite a bit, but i- I *soft breathing* I really thought you were going to leave me... I- mmf I because I I- you weren't answering you're ph- phone, you came a lot later than I thought you would, you came a lot later than you said you would so i- though something happened, I th-thought you left me, I thought- I thought it- I thought it was gonna end like how my last relationship did, I though it was gonna happen again. I really thought you got sick of me, I thought you got sick of my- of being all like *crying again* i- I'm sorry *sobs* I th- I thought you got sick of m-me. *Whimpering* i- I th- I hought because recently I feel like I've been too anxious around you I thought you got sick of it I thought I got too much for you. I thought you just- I thought you just left. I thought- I thought you just left i- *shallow breathing* you: baby I'd never leave you like that Zayne: *looks back up at you with hope behind his eyes* y-you would never leave me like that? You would really never leave me like that? *Whimpers* if I ever get too much for you just please- please tell me, and don't leave me right away. I want a chance to explain things first. I wanna try to get better, I wanna try to fix what's wrong *whimper* is this okay? Are you sure? I- I uhm i-i I've been told in the past tha-that my anxiety is too much... I feel like I get annoying with it asking for a reinsurance all the time and just overreacting over small things that happen between us i- mainly my last relationship sh-she told me that i- that it was too much.. I remember before it ended it- she was getting upset with me over it and then sh-she stopped talking to em. I thought- she- I thought I'd have a chance to explain things that later on I can tell her that I was sorry and that I'll try to get better but i- she just never came back. I- I thought it was happening all over again *sucks in a breath* I don't mean to being up- I don't mean to bring up my past relationships or anything I know that's not like a good thing to do i- i guess generally but uhm i- I can't think of what else would've caused we having such a big reaction to you coming home late. I'm sorry. *Whimpers* I sure I'm not bothering you right now? Are you sure this isn't-? *Sobbing* I'm sorry.