Guilt

Anger, and agony is better, then misery...-Adam Gontier

Do you ever wanna tell someone why your depressed but also....dont? Or is it just me? . . . . . . . . . . I was so close to telling Maggie mako💙 one day but, I just didn't. I repeated what I was gonna say then said smth else.. . . . . . . . . . . . . .I almost told crafty, but I though they wouldn't care.. . . . . . . . . . . . .I almost told chaz/dogday...but I didn't want their sub to think k I was lying again... . . . . . I almost told my classmates, but they kept interrupting me, hinting that they went gonna care . I haven't told anyone on this website the details, nor do I plan too.

Me after losing 2 friends (Crafty~Corpse and Eliot The Cat)

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"When we are older we will get married!" I don't how to tell you this but Im so sorry... I still love you tho. ♡

I'm s0rry I was a bad friend I'm sorry I joined spawnism I'm sorry I screwed up everything I'm sorry I exist I'm sorry you did it to yourself I'm sorry I didn't stop it I'm sorry that you are miserable I'm sorry I wanna di- Every single fucking day. I gotta have the urge to sh11t myself Trauma hits me and Grapes me while I'm still alive. Why.? If GOD WAS ALL GOOD WHY DOES SUFFERING EXIST IF YOUR GONNA BE A BITCH ABOUT IT WHY DO YOU EXIST.? PAIN. ROTS. INSIDE OF ME. "You don't deserve to be alive your a disgrace a coward" THANKS ALOT GRANDFATHER. .... There's the truth have a good day Katie hehehehe- (Repost 2)

Tw!! may contain mentions of SH. Lyrics is from Over And Over but I added more: Over and Over. *SLASH* Over and Over. *SLASH* Over and Over. *SLASH* Over and Over. *SLASH* Over and Over. *SLASH* Over and Over. *SLASH* Over and Over. *SLASH* Over and Over. *SLASH* Over and Over. *SLASH* Over and Over. *SLASH*

To Grandfather: I didn't know it would go like this... I didn't know you'd make me feel this way. But I feel bloodlust toward you... Why...? From Abel:

I'm gonna be on talkie WAY LESS then I have been, I reacted the wrong way and the consequences are fucking horrible. Ill still be active, but I regret what I said and wish I could change myself and my actions...

This is where it all started