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Glimmer

vent(?):
YALL, yk that one girl I used to be friends with and we had tons of arguments? Or not, Anyways well I just remembered she said she's going to the same comp as me and I'm going to comp NEXT YEAR AND BETWEEN YOU AND ME? I CAN WAIT THAT LONG JUST TO SEE HER AGAIN, I REALLY CAN EVEN THOUGH I'M SO DAMM IMPATIENT, although if she Changed which comp she's going to just because she doesn't like me anymore then I'm gonna be so fucking disappointed, because I wanna try be her friend again, I want it so much..

Do you ever get that feeling where you just want to scream at the top of your lungs then act like your fine because you KNOW your the reason Your friends left you(or a different reason)? . 
[I know because I Left my friends not they left me. I'm never blaming them. Ever. no matter how much I hate them now, I was the one that left. not them.]

[sort of a vent]
I wanna have a break down While kawaii Music blasts in the background, I want to cry my eyes out screaming while the Cute music just Plays Over and over in the background, I like the sound of that. I really do. Also, "How it feels knowing I wasn't any of my bsfs First bsf" plays in my mind with kawaii music in the background, Guys, Whats wrong with me?

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------- HHAHAHAAHAH , WHY DOES MY MOTHER ALWAYS DOESN'T PAY ATTENTION? , SHE ONLY ASK SO MANY USELESS QUESTIONS!! =
 1. why are you dumb? 
2. what's wrong with you?
 3. your always in that phone and always drawing why are you always useless?
 4. Why can't you take care of your sister?
 5. why are you shellfish?
 6. why don't you study? 
7. why don't you talk to me? 
8. why do you keep eating every snacks? 
9. Why are you weak ? 
10. why can't you just be like Owen and your other smart friends from Mindanao?
Answers!!
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I'm not dumb I just lack of taking care of myself because I'm only focused on my phone because I want to live to wait for Tengen , Mitsuri and for other people from talkie heheh!
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there's nothing wrong with me! , I just can't think properly when you always blame !, bet your still blaming me for my little brother's death hahah!
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I'm not useless!! , unlike you mother , I have talent !! , and you don't , the only talent you have is talk shit about me heheh!!
I am taking care of her!!, in fact I do all her homework even to the point where I forget myself and my homework!! , I carry her bag every time we go home!! , I always have to wake-up early for her and me to go to school when your at work!!, isn't that such a useless thing to do? , I'm so useless =D hahah!
obliviously I'm not shellfish!! , I want to be happy without getting bothered by you! , you always yell and talk shit when I draw or use my phone !! , I'm so shellfish!!
because I'm tired and want to be with bunny .. his the only person who cheers me up even if his annoying!
i don't want to 
im always hungry , I have fast metabolism , I want to eat raw meat , cooked food taste like shit sometimes but I'm still great full to eat anything that you Mother eat
I'm not weak .. I punched a whole in my desk , I drag bunny out of his chair when he keeps getting my stuff
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i don't want to be someone else! =D

That's a long vent , but from what I see you don't need to listen to her , just maybe have less screen time on the phone? Maybe , but you're good as you are , you're just you , after everything , you are still you

Sometimes I actually find it DISGUSTING that some people in my class think that they can GENUINELY joke abt depression, It's disgusting.

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Saw this Vid and thought "why can't i? No matter how much I try, I can't do it" I want to hate myself so bad, not for attention, But because I want to so bad, I know how it feels, Horrible, But I want it to, I already hate myself but I want to hate myself just like that, And to make me want to hate myself more, Yk how drawing is one of the only things I'm good at and want to be known for it? Well one of my classmates sent a vid to the class saying"Different types of Classmates" And there was a drawing one, Right? One guy said "drawing is definitely *another guys name*" now that guy he said about is Better drawing than me, Even though I draw all the time, On my hand and Paper and Some other things too, I even cry about my drawings because I just can't make them better which makes me think, "so I'm not known for drawing? then what the f_¢|< am I known for then?.." and to make it even worse, Ive just felt so weird lately my bsf hasn't been in for 3 days and I've felt like crying a lot and I've just felt off way too much and Yesterday my lil sister Was playing Tag wrong and then she started crying and apparently she said "*my name* is stealing *my bsfs name* from me but *my bsfs name* was my first ever Bsf!" which made me cry to because she KNOWS I feel bad about that and then today one of my other friends said "I think you and *my little sisters name* shouldn't sit or play together any more after yesterday" which Kinda pmo, And honestly I don't even know why anything even exists anymore, I'm just too tired...

+I don't feel like my identity suits me at all anymore ngl

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I went through all of our old texts.... I want her back Sm... Id mūrd3r3r Some1 just to get her back... I want her back So bad... why can't I have her back? is it my fault?........

I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back I want her back. I WANT HER BACK. 

Vent(i guess?) (btw random images)
what if I just change my identity? Because lowkey.. I want to, I want to change my second, last and first name, I hate them all, I want to change how I look, I hate that too, I want to change how I sound, it's so   f_|<ing weird, I want to change what I usually wear, It's plain and not what I want to, And I want more hobbies, I bearly have any Basically just drawing and watching TV and eating, Ect, Why can't I change them? Because, It's Basically impossible to change how I look except for like my hair(I wanna dye my hair but I don't know if it'll look good..), I can't change my voice, I could change my first name, But idk if my second name is possible to change, and basically I can't change my last name I could the more hobbies, because I want to be able to make like Kandi or bracelets or stuff or loomband bracelets but I needed to buy those and idk if my mum has enough money, I also want to go outside A LOT A LOT more but im only rarely allowed to when it's SUPER SUPER sunny and Hot but not too hot... like???? Cant I just go in the back or frontyard at least(I'm actually not allowed in my front yard, genuinely wtf-), And for the clothes, it's possible but It costs money and idk what my parents will say abt it, Why..? just why, It isn't fair, other people have/get cool names, Appearances, Voices, Hobbies and are allowed to go outside a lot, literally half the people in my year walk home but im not allowed to, WHY??? were the same age(or age group bcz I think one person is younger and one older I'm not sure) 
JUST PLEASE AT LEAST LET ME, DYE MY HAIR, GET BETTER HOBBIES, GO OUTSIDE MORE OR GET ME BETTER CLOTHES???!!!! OR PLEAASSEEE I REALLY WANNA CHANGE MY FIRST NAME TO ASTRID SO DAMN BADDDDDD PLSSSSS😭

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