n and uzi sad

n and uzi:I don't know what I was thinking Leaving my child behind Now I suffer the curse, and now I am blind With all this anger, guilt, and sadness Coming to haunt me forever I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river Is this revenge I am seeking? Or seeking someone to avenge me? Stuck in my own paradox, I wanna set myself free Maybe I should chase and find before they'll try to stop it It won't be long before I'll become a puppet It's been so long Since I last have seen my son lost to